When I was 13 I spent a lot of time thinking about becoming a priest.
I also asked questions about the bible and also crossed into evolution and religion. I tried to have discussions with many priests but many,hate to receive questions or give answers.
One of the common replys I received was "we should not question that which has been given to us in the bible". I did ask why we couldn't ask questions so we can better understand what we ate being told. Many did not have time for me.
I did my own searching,unfortunately the internet was not around then, so I did a lot of visiting and reading.
There was one scripture class at school that changed my mind completely about ever becoming a priest. This priest spoke about how " good his church was", he even compared it to the one a few suburbs away, and stated that his was the best.
This troubled me,I wanted to question him but being in class and others near by, I remained silent but deep in thought.
We are supposed to love one another, the priest all serve the same God and all men are considered equal,yet here was a priest bagging out another priest from the same religion miles away. To me, that is so wrong. It was more about him than it was reaching out to the youth. He did teach me one thing, that division still exists even in religious groups.
Even back then, I questioned "a star moving over a stable". I thought primitive man would call it a star as they had to flying machine to compare it to,we would call it a spaceship as we know stars don't move like that or shine its " beam" directly on one barn. Yes a miracle to them and certainly worth writing about.
I have faith,don't want to condemn the good book but we have advanced so much in our understanding. We have learnt and continue to learn good grounding and morals from the bible.
Through out time, man has always questioned the way of things, sort to improve upon our way of doing things by learning g more about our world,how everything acts and reacts, our knowledge grows but our spirit also reaches out.
For many,many years, I would never identify as one religion or another, I would simply say "I am a child of the universe". Many were not happy about this as they thought I had to claim one or the other. I told them that I get a little from many religions and followings. I keep an open mind,many share common ideals. I did not want to be blind to the way of other practices, to be aware is to be actively seeking self development for myself, in turn I can better serve others.
There is no division in "my house", we can talk about anything. In our home we have Christians,pagans,holistic beliefs living together and working as one. Our everyday practices can actually compliment one another.
I think back to my younger days and internal struggle with religion and evolution and remember my questioning going through the roof.
These days I have accepted some things but will never blindly accept without understanding the core issues.